3 months old!

i'm sorry if this "naked" picture offends anyone! ha ha i just had to show off his roll-y little body!



Dear Luke,

Happy 3 month birthday! I can not believe you are so old already. You get more and more entertaining every day. You started this great squeal thing - you sound like you training to be a raptor. It's hilarious.

You started actually liking toys about 3 days ago. Your Grandma Daley got you this bee-like toy that rattles and vibrates....Dad put it on your stomach and you were LAUGHING and LAUGHING. I don't know what it is, but your dad can make you laugh more than anyone else. I try all the same things he does and none of it works. You just give me that look of "what on earth are you doing mom?"

You also started doing this funny thing where you put your feet together so you're in like the butterfly position. It is so funny. My favorite though is when you try to sit yourself up. You HATE laying down. Almost as much as you hate Tummy Time. Tummy Time is always a chore. You last for like 45 seconds before you start kicking yourself sideways and grunting at me. Confession - I usually just watch you for a few minutes before I rescue you...it is just so funny!

You are starting to grab for things now too. Your favorite I think is to play peek-a-boo with yourself. When you have a blanket around you, you grab a hold of the edge and pull it over your face and back down again - for like 3 minutes straight. And for you to be entertained for more than 3 minutes is quite an accomplishment! Except when you watch TV....uh oh. Starting a bad habit already. When I start having guilt that you love the tv, I have you watch Planet Earth..then I feel like you're at least learning about penguins and polar bears, rather than just the Today Show or Oprah.

You are a little high maintenance in the car though. You feel left out when your dad and I put you in the back seat and leave you all alone. You just squawk and squawk until we get to wherever we were going. Unless we talk to you...that seems to help. Or, we give you your binkie and you latch on with a death grip to our fingers and not let go until we get to wherever we were going. I think it is security to know that we are still there.

You just make me laugh Lukey. Oh! I almost forgot...you LOVE to jump. as much as possible. We put you in this little jumpy thing that hangs in the door frame and you just scream and yell (the good yell, not the angry kind) and jump, jump, jump. It is so cute. Except then you get dizzy because you can't control which way you go. That makes you mad.

The other new thing you do is you like gurgle or something. You make this funny spitty noise in the back of your throat when you get excited...it's what happens right before you laugh.

You are the sweetest little guy ever. You love your dad - you get SO excited to see him when he is done with work. It is one of my very favorite things to watch.

We love you so much Lukey. You are a great little boy and I am loving watching every thing you learn. You are so curious and love to explore...I'm dreading what life will be like when you can explore places on your own!

Love,
Mom & Dad

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*Disclaimer - do not read this unless you feel like reading the post from Debbie Downer. that's who i am today.*



i'm kind of going through this phase where i feel like i am replace-able. it's really not so great. i think maybe i haven't had a real blog in a while since i have nothing peppy or exciting to say.

feeling replaced is terrible. i go through this phase every once in a while. it's probably just a serious insecurity of mine...people leaving. weird because i've never had a real traumatic experience that included people leaving. apparently it's just a worry of mine.

It's nothing against the people in my life that find others to fill my spot, i just notice it seems to happen. more often than not. which leads me to wonder...is it me? well apparently, because it doesn't happen to everyone else i know.

best friends move on, find other, newer best friends. maybe i can convince myself that it's just the newness of the "new and better" friend that makes them so exciting. maybe it's the negative experiences between the "old" best friends that draw the line to a point of no return. maybe it's just the need for a change. maybe you were in their life only for a certain time, for a specific reason. they needed you for those days, weeks, months or years, and now your job there is completed so you can both move on. it always seems to be easier for one friend than the other i think.

how do you move on without seriously compromising the others feelings? how do they move on without seriously compromising yours? i don't know if that's possible. what do you do if you want to move on and they don't? or vice versa...

I don't know, i've just kind of been at a loss lately. i love my husband, more than anything. i love my little lukey - also more than anything. it's weird how that works. i love that cory has a job that supports our family. i love that i have a job that allows me to take lukey with me and work flexible hours. i know that i have a great life, and i am incredibly blessed. maybe i just still don't feel like it's enough. i don't know. loneliness is a weird thing. it seems to come and go in spurts. sometimes it's easy to handle, other times its not.

i miss my mom. i miss katy. i miss megan. i miss meagan. i miss nikki. i miss sister time with ambie. and here i am...my sweet baby is FINALLY sleeping - like two hours than usual...that means he'll sleep two hours than usual right? ha. cory is humoring me and letting me watch SVU - my favorite show. i have a great life. maybe i can focus on that and it will get me through this lonely spurt i'm having......oh and hopefully a happy post is on it's way.

what the heck - 2 in one day? wow.

Thank you to Katy for this one...........

8 Favorite TV Shows
1. Desperate Housewives
2. DSM - until it was CANCELLED ugh.
3. Biggest Loser
4. One Tree Hill
5. Law & Order: SVU.
6. Ugly Betty
7. Private Practice
8. Lipstick Jungle - except i think it might have been cancelled too. which is also devastating.
9. Greys Anatomy
*I got 9 favorites because 2 are cancelled so they only count as 1/2

8 Favorite Dishes
1. Ham & Grandma Potatoes. oh man so good.
2. Costco Pizza & Churro combo
3. pot roast & potatoes
4. ranch chicken
5. poppy seed chicken
6. italian chicken
7. Pasta Milano from Macaroni Grill
8. cafe rio of course

8 Things That Happened Yesterday
1. worked
2. went to costco
3. played with luke
4. dropped cory off at work
5. watched ugly betty
6. watched grey's
7. laundry
8. hung out with katy!!!


8 Things I Look Forward To
1. life in 10 years.
2. cory finding a new job
3. cory finishing school
4. luke's new tricks as he grows up
5. katy and tyler having a baby! :)
6. amber having a boyfriend then husband
7. fitting in to my old clothes.
8. owning a house and having a housekeeper. a girl can dream right?

8 Things I Love about Winter
1. sweaters
2. watching the snow fall
3. nothing
4. nothing
5. nothing
6. nothing
7. nothing
8. nothing

8 Things on my Wish list
1. a house
2. new furniture for our family room
3. a touareg (sp?)
4. amber to have a boyfriend
5. katy and tyler to have a baby
6. i can't think of anything else.
7. really.
8. seriously.

Of course I tag cotter, evans, ambie and kaitlyn

holla

I have never loved anything as much as I am loving life at this moment.

Luke is sleeping, washing machine is going strong, cory is watching the discover channel - surprise surprise, and KATY IS HERE! except that she leaves tomorrow. so sad.

and I am listening to the new Britney Spears cd and the new Christina Aguilera cd and I am SERIOUSLY loving every second of them. seriously.

Memo

I'm pretty sure Luke didn't get the memo that babies are supposed to nap during the day. He only slept for TWO HOURS all day! Man it is hard to get things done when he doesn't sleep!

What a day!

Today was quite the day! It was busy and long and full of adventure!

I fulfilled so many roles today and I am so proud of myself for the success I had in all of them!

I was a mother, a wife, a cook, a housekeeper, an employee, a boss, a chauffeur, an aunt and a friend. And suffice it to say, I completed all of them with grace, humor and intelligence.

I accomplished being a mom. I feel great about our day. I was able to hang out with Luke, make him do his almost-laugh so many times I lost track. It was a great day.

I was a wife - I had adult conversation - not about Luke - with Cory, we even laughed a little. ha.

I was a cook...prepared some meals and everything!

I was a housekeeper...I even got the bed made. BEFORE going to work. That is an accomplishment when you work at 9:30......

I was an employee. And a good one, at that. I accomplished everything on my to-do list, and then some. I'm even a little ahead for my day tomorrow!

I was a boss - delegated responsibilities, praised when necessary and even corrected once or twice.

I was Amber's chauffer - we went to her school, to our brothers house and to target. All within like two hours.

We had so much fun at my brothers house. He has two of the cutest little boys ever. The oldest one even loves me! He was sad when I left! That's how I know the time together was a success.

I was also a friend to Amber, we talked, laughed, vented...did it all.

I have had such a fulfilling day. Full of adventure - like I said before. I am so proud of myself for being able to look back on a great day, and acknowledge the MANY successes that I had. I feel so blessed to have a wonderful happy husband and son, clean house, tasty meal, great sister, great nephews and a great job.

And that's all there is to it.

2 months...and 5 days

Dear Luke,

Don't worry, I'm only 5 days late writing this....Life is busy with you around now! You had your 2 month check up on Monday (your actual 2 month birthday). You weigh 12 lbs 4 oz and are 23 1/4 inches long! Getting so big! You keep getting funnier and funnier every day. You LOVE to be sitting up looking around, taking in the world. If you are awake and we lay you down you just grunt and yell (not cry) until we sit you up.

You do this funny yelling thing. It's happened a few times where you have woken up in the middle of the night after kicking off your blankets. You just laid there yelling at me until I came in and wrapped you up again. You fell right back to sleep. So cute.

A couple of times it has taken me a bit to come and get you out of bed and I come in and there you are...SIDEWAYS in your bed. You kick your little self until your head is against the bars and you are turned. It really surprised me the first time, but after the 5th time or so I just have come to expect it!

I am very proud of you for not succumbing to the norm and losing all your hair. It is still blonde-with a little reddish tint and longer than ever! It is completely out of control too. There is always a part in the back that sticks up. no matter what.

You LOVE bath time. It takes dad and I both there to give you a bath. you make such a mess! you kick the entire time and splash as much as you can. It's so funny because you'll splash yourself in the face and it surprises you so much you freeze for like 5 seconds and then start doing it again.

Lukey, you have no idea how much your dad and I love you. You are so darn cute and fun to hang out with! You have been coming to work with me for the last month and are handling it very well. the people there just love you. And you are a good boy too - so far you've only had one meltdown. you do this great thing where you refuse to sleep...and then you loose it. completely. at least it's only every once in a while.

I love you Lukey! Happy 2 month birthday!

Love
Mom and Dad